The Bittersweet Paradox

This week is going to be a big one for me. I'm doing something completely unnerving at a relatively large personal expense. Something which I have no idea will even "work out." I guess I can take comfort in the fact that if God's involved, it's guaranteed to work out, even if it's not how I would have liked it. It's something I've been thinking about and even dreaming about for a long time. And I'm actually going to make the first substantial step towards doing it this week. Holy cow.

It's hard because even though I've known I've really wanted to do this for so long, I could show up, and the other party involved may say "thanks but no thanks" or "we just don't think you're a 'fit'." And I may not be. I suppose them saying that would just confirm what I've been thinking to myself every time this situation has crossed my mind. Whether or not I am a "fit", I'm not even sure. I pray that that's one of the things God reveals to me this week.

It feels a little like I'm Indiana Jones at the end of The Last Crusade when Harrison Ford is looking over the edge of a cliff hoping there'll be a bridge there to catch him when he steps off the edge. Lucky for him there was. My sometimes shaky faith in God says that there will be a bridge there for me too, I just haven't seen it yet.

Hey Alex! If there's no bridge, I promise you'll have a parachute. I think it's faith- don't be afraid to jump because God provided your equipment and faith will never fail you. God has so much for you- and I'm so happy to see you pursuing His will!!

Hey how'd the trip to Chi-Town go...:)

Yeah, give us an update on Chi-ca-go!!

BTW, that's what faith is, believing that there will be a bridge (or parachute) there even when you CAN'T SEE it!!

~~Becki